Truly Courtney

These past couple months I have been discovering more and more of who I am; not just discovering myself, but actually loving myself. I’m still learning so much about who I am, but most importantly, I’m learning that the most important relationship you need to have in life, is the one with yourself. These past 5 or so years I have worked so hard and concentrated so much on trying to salvage relationships with others… whether it be with my parents, my friends, boyfriends…that I haven’t actually taken the time to salvage the relationship with myself. And I have realized that through loving myself and working on the person that I am, those relationships with others just seem to fall right into place; they work themselves out. That saying really is true: “How can you expect anyone else to love you if YOU don’t love you?”  I wish this motto was encouraged to people more, especially to girls. For me at least, I feel like girls have this stigma that you are suppose to find happiness through someone else, especially a man or a “boyfriend.” For too long I fell into believing that. My emotions and happiness were always in the hands of someone else; whether it was a boyfriend, my mother, my best friend. More and more I have been realizing that my happiness depends on ME and the relationship I have with MYSELF. No one else is in control of my happiness. It’s both a scary and empowering feeling. The road to self love doesn’t have a destination, it’s a lifelong journey. But I’m truly enjoying the process of loving and getting to know myself. It’s a feeling that I hope every soul gets to experience. It’s a great feeling loving who you are.